"A New Look" (Retried)
Okay, so because of all of the drama at school this past year, I'm changing my image, and my state of mind. I'm going to be more introverted. This always seemed to work best for me anyway. Yes, Katie will still be my BFF & nothing will change on those lines, but I'm thinking about blocking most everyone else out. No one can understand what I'm going though. My sister recently attempted suicide. Apparently she doesn't know how much her just thinking about that would do to me, let alone her trying to accomplish it. I'm so thankful she didn't succeed. Boy, if she had, I would be in such a major depression and probably in a psych ward. I have got to change not only my state of mind, but my image as well. I want my style to reflect my individuality. I'm used to throwing on jeans and a t-shirt. What does that say about me? That I'm in Drama club? Not the kind of statement I want to make. My sister dyed her hair black. I've been wanting to dye mine that color forever but haven't had the money to do it. If I get it done now though, everyone will think I am copying her. If I change my style people might think the same. Well I'm not. This is me. She is always wanting attention. I'm the one who got her introduced to this stuff in the first place. It's not my fault she made a statement first. My image must first start with new clothes. I'll find stuff I like wherever I shop. I hope. Well I'm very tired and am going to bed. Gonna think some more on this. People change, and that includes me. ^_^ For better or worse, I shall try...
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