I think I'm losing it...

So I’ve officially gone 8 hours and 12 minutes without food or any drink besides water. It’s the longest I’ve gone so far. I know it doesn’t seem like much, but I’ve been attempting to become anorexic for a couple of weeks now. I skipped a real meal today. I say “real” because I don’t count skipping breakfast just because I slept in. I skipped supper today, and my dad grilled… feels like an accomplishment to me.

                Now, I don’t know if anyone would actually understand my thoughts, but I pretty much think like a recovering anorexic. I know I should eat, I know why I should eat, but when I look at myself in the mirror it disgusts me, and I want to cut myself when I eat. I don’t know when anyone will notice, but I don’t care. Honestly, the sooner they notice, the sooner I can get help for this, and hopefully for my depression